So finally after seeing post various thoughts on the net for years, anything from random to very personal and profound thoughts... I decide to try to bring some of my journaling stuff to the public. Journal is such interesting word. Rick Warren' purpose driven life book... talk about life can be seem as a journey. Journey to life or journey to death, depending your relationship with God. Journal I guess become a meaningful word when I think about my life's journey. Because it helps me to examine, keep record and redefine my journey again and again... before God.. before me.. before others even..
It's being exactly a month since I start working in S. Cal. I feel I am been in LA for much longer than that. Christianity here does seems very different from what I used to know. Relocating out of Bay area to La, is like God's wake up call for me... to relocated out of my comfort zone relationally and spiritually into an unknown people. For the people who likes to plan and make sure everything is right and wants to know everything... living with uncertainty and unknown is particular challenge for me. I guess I have this transition to La is one of toughest I ever face in my life. I guess whenever I go to a new environment, I get to examine/re-examine manythings... my value system, my belief... especially about humanity and Christianity.
Without the strong idea of having a home church around... I become a pilgrim, a wander out here... and learning new things as I go. Accepting people's life as I go. I recall in Eliz Elliot's Savage My Kinsman, she mentioned Christianity or how people live their life before God in the tribe she stays is very different from the people in the civilized world. I now start to notice many things I use to believe or perfer about living for God (like having a good church life, and vaiours spiritual disciplines) need to be examine again. Though many spiritual hardship I see in churches and friends have in LA, I get to glimspe how Christian lives in this land. Now without much color and history, past burden, I get to be free. Free in learning to accept and learn from them. Free to see how people's way to live for God outside the boundary/limitation of church... and even free to be connect with them...
Also I realize thru this transition what I care the most again is relationship ... throughall my emotional ups and downs and what I have hard time to let go people at hoe or desire to establish connection with people here. Life is all about relationship with others and with God to me.. I see everything in term of relationship... church, friends...
Now in everywhere I go, various church, friend's gathering, relative's gathering... only couple word they describe to me, the same word I describe to myself... I am new.. and I am free. Free for a clean start and redefinition. Of course all this can only be done in Christ, much of my unknowns are still unknowns at this point, each day passes by with new revelation and leading...... I guess that's what an adventure with God is about. | 
